A thought which has been rankling in my mind for a few days is finally being penned down or rather typed. Gone are the old- fashioned days when one would write first on a paper , correct it and then have the final result . Well , with all these auto-check facilities, erase , undo copy paste , I wonder where we are stuck.
Coming back to my thoughts , which are few and plenty as always ( depending on the diminishing brain cells) I wanted to write about Inner Quest. In fact, for the first time I would not rant or rave . It is my personal belief that the journey is mine ; cannot be on any shoulders how much ever I want to cry or want to share. It is not even lessened by a book or by constant prayers or by making a pilgrimage to all the holy places I do so want to visit. If someone, says share , lighten the burden that is the biggest con line . No amount of reading or sharing one's woes will make you feel better , till you dont want to.
It is not prisoner to anyone nor is to a moment where one feels temporary euphoria by the possession of a materialistic item .Be it the next phone , the biggest most expensive purse , or the rock which you get. In fact, isn't it ironical ,that what we want so lustily from nature , we abuse rape it the most . Man is nature's finest creation but we will abuse, kill , slander , stuff it in a caste-ridden box-hole and fight wars. To posses, stamp is what we aim at. Well back on track , ( sorry ingrained habit of rambling) a quest is a journey with a purpose to achieve something .Please don't be cynical here and say here comes her latent desire of acquisition, and I'm not sugar coating it to sound very spiritual here . Nor am I mincing any words.
My inner quest comes at a moment when I see, sense a growing disquiet , a little sense of something is missing and slowly it becomes bigger .
We all choose religious organisations first , Punjab is famous for it!, bookstores, browse the net , do jaap endlessly, boasting about one's dhyaan, meditation classes ( quite the business) , flower therapy,angel therapy, crystals, magical balls, workshops , retreats to the remotest corners of the world, keeping maunvrat , have endless discussions over HIM ---- the list goes on and on. Many of these are helpful ,but as they say the trail peters out before we find out what we are looking for.
A quick fix, the glimmer of a real answer there, but never quite the feeling that we're making progress.
The spiritual quest is in fact a journey according to me. If I wanted to go from Jalandhar to Chandigarh, can't go to Pathankot and then think that Chandigarh is on the way. Be clear , precise, definite is what I've figured out. Don't confuse yourself about the path , you should be familiar with the destination the terrain that lies where you are going to cross and have a plan for crossing it . Don't be a dodo.Have an accurate game -plan to reach the point of satisfaction.
I realized that along the way , I wanted a guide to spirituality not religion which is confined to dogma, superstition , practices , customs, cultural activities limited to an area. I did not even want mysticism , which according to me is religion accompanied with difficult , subtle practices which reveal inner realms.
For me, what I wanted, is a philosophy of life, incorporating ethical and moral values that are indispensable to health and well being, and at the same time provided me a workable system of self- training leading to self- transformation ( so need to cut down the caffeine n chocolates).
I felt that till I did not want it, really want it ,it was just a show, a mimic of rituals or parroting till I did not imbibe the first principle . To commit .I needed my mind to be clear and not be confused by exterior distractions.
Part 2 tmrw .
Coming back to my thoughts , which are few and plenty as always ( depending on the diminishing brain cells) I wanted to write about Inner Quest. In fact, for the first time I would not rant or rave . It is my personal belief that the journey is mine ; cannot be on any shoulders how much ever I want to cry or want to share. It is not even lessened by a book or by constant prayers or by making a pilgrimage to all the holy places I do so want to visit. If someone, says share , lighten the burden that is the biggest con line . No amount of reading or sharing one's woes will make you feel better , till you dont want to.
It is not prisoner to anyone nor is to a moment where one feels temporary euphoria by the possession of a materialistic item .Be it the next phone , the biggest most expensive purse , or the rock which you get. In fact, isn't it ironical ,that what we want so lustily from nature , we abuse rape it the most . Man is nature's finest creation but we will abuse, kill , slander , stuff it in a caste-ridden box-hole and fight wars. To posses, stamp is what we aim at. Well back on track , ( sorry ingrained habit of rambling) a quest is a journey with a purpose to achieve something .Please don't be cynical here and say here comes her latent desire of acquisition, and I'm not sugar coating it to sound very spiritual here . Nor am I mincing any words.
My inner quest comes at a moment when I see, sense a growing disquiet , a little sense of something is missing and slowly it becomes bigger .
We all choose religious organisations first , Punjab is famous for it!, bookstores, browse the net , do jaap endlessly, boasting about one's dhyaan, meditation classes ( quite the business) , flower therapy,angel therapy, crystals, magical balls, workshops , retreats to the remotest corners of the world, keeping maunvrat , have endless discussions over HIM ---- the list goes on and on. Many of these are helpful ,but as they say the trail peters out before we find out what we are looking for.
A quick fix, the glimmer of a real answer there, but never quite the feeling that we're making progress.
The spiritual quest is in fact a journey according to me. If I wanted to go from Jalandhar to Chandigarh, can't go to Pathankot and then think that Chandigarh is on the way. Be clear , precise, definite is what I've figured out. Don't confuse yourself about the path , you should be familiar with the destination the terrain that lies where you are going to cross and have a plan for crossing it . Don't be a dodo.Have an accurate game -plan to reach the point of satisfaction.
I realized that along the way , I wanted a guide to spirituality not religion which is confined to dogma, superstition , practices , customs, cultural activities limited to an area. I did not even want mysticism , which according to me is religion accompanied with difficult , subtle practices which reveal inner realms.
For me, what I wanted, is a philosophy of life, incorporating ethical and moral values that are indispensable to health and well being, and at the same time provided me a workable system of self- training leading to self- transformation ( so need to cut down the caffeine n chocolates).
I felt that till I did not want it, really want it ,it was just a show, a mimic of rituals or parroting till I did not imbibe the first principle . To commit .I needed my mind to be clear and not be confused by exterior distractions.
Part 2 tmrw .
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